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Madam,
I understand that you have organized holidays for Catherine. Nevertheless, I am unhappy at the impossibility to spend a few weeks with her. You must know that July, on the Cote d'Azur, is financially impossible for me, and that I have done everything possible to come to France this year.
I had wished to speak to Mrs. Lu first, but that turned out impossible. Then I was at Fontenay-aux-roses, thinking I could ring you up. But there again, no telephone. I have wasted this way a couple of days. I have very few attachments left in France aside from Catherine, which, unfortunately has had to stay here.
As I am working, I only have the month of July free. Do you see a solution? Here in Paris, I have few expenses as a friend has lent me her flat. I simply cannot spend 3500 FF per day. Let me know, as soon as possible if I can go to Cannes and find appropriate lodging. While re-reading Guy's letter, it appears that you have already devised a solution for lodging. Maybe it is with Marinette, for whom I have kept fond memories? Armand recently told me that her husband passed away; it must be a very sad moment for her. I never wrote them since you came to America for one simple reason: your son and I would not remain together. Which I do not regret. Armand did not love me, and it is useless to go over the topic again. It was hard enough when, during my trip five years ago you had to talk about her father to the child, when another person would have filled those shoes. Patience was necessary then. Although that man is and will remain dear to me, I will never marry him. I decided this three years ago.
The passing of Mr. Senechal obviously changes things. I had to accept this; but I never wanted that Catherine leave the school other than with the Lu family. I thank you nonetheless for everything you did for Catherine. And also for pushing Catherine to write. Maybe she is just as indifferent as her father is. What I have to say in writing is more directed to adults than to children. This is why I only send messages on particular occasions. Yet her father gets news from her...
I am not devious, I say what I think. I am older now, and I believe I have the privilege to do so after 13 years. I hope you have not put me down in the eyes of the child, because, one day, she will know the truth and will be able to judge for herself.
I still do not understand why you took Catherine when you knew I was arriving on the 3rd. Why could she not stay with Josee meanwhile? I have not talked to them yet. Please write immediately with instructions. I do not wish that you offer free holidays to Catherine. I also cannot allow myself twice the expense.
On hearing you soon, I hope,
B. Camus