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Dear Pavel,
<parts in Czech>
Do not blame me for loving you. You wanted it and only you have had, and will ever have my heart, my soul and my body.
[...]
More often than not, I listen to my heart rather than the voice of reason and without absolving or accusing myself [...] was by my side and I was fooling myself.
I will not send you the season's wishes we are accustomed to, but rather hope for peace in our hearts. As a gift, I would like to let you know that I have experienced the greatest joy of my life and can only repeat myself - I love you to this day.
I take this opportunity to state my belief in your science and thank you for having spent the time to make me understand. I may be jealous of your knowledge and feel insignificant by your side. You doubted my sharing your cultural life, yet that is my greatest desire. I believe that one day your path will be clearer and that, as youth passes, you will become more conciliatory, less arrogant and will better see the hearts of those that surround you.
Then, you will find peace.
Maybe I, too, will find someone who will make me see and stand up to life - what I have always desired. This is not self-centered, but rather a goal for me, my life, my death.
Intelligence was not gifted on me, but I harbor treasures that others do not. I have had real friends to which I committed. I will regain the strength to find others. So if you should wish me anything, may it be courage. Then I shall find peace; the one I always had before I met what we believed was shared love. It is the greatest gift, that of finding a precious stone in a love that does not bleed.
May I allow myself to tell you, one last time, that the greatest part of my heart is yours, possibly for eternity.